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Do people change?

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.

I've thought they don't. They might show another side in another situation, with different people, but that's just the other side to them. But.. I don't even recognize me anymore.

I used to think I was loyal. Truthful. Loving. And I've been quite the opposite of that as of late. And I don't like it one bit.

Remember when I was
So strange and likable

I just want back in your head
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful but I'll stray

When I get a little scared

  It would make sense that we grow up, and that means losing some traits. Or maybe pushing them to the back of your mind, never to be used again. I think I used to like drama. I mean, it'd be horrible and SO INTERESTING at the same time.

I haven't liked drama for years, though. It's so bothersome, I'd just like things to be calm and nice. Interesting, sure, but in a different, less destructive way. And yet somehow with my overemotional unstable self, I create situations of drama. And I hate myself for it after. No, during. And still am unable to stop.

There's nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone
And I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around
I- I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I- I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
So don't you worry there's still time
Don't you worry there's still time
Don't you worry there's still time
Don't you worry there's still time
Sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words
I can't say that I'll love you forever

 Each morning I hope I wake up as a better person. I'm trying to, really.

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