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Right here right now

Mar 8, 2010 || 23:23

I'm awful at being alone. It's like I need relationships to give me a purpose. I need to love. Not just to be loved, but to really head-over-heels love someone. I used to do a lot of pointless online tests, but I remember one in particular. The question was something like 'what makes you tick' or 'what motivates you' or something, but my result was nothing other than love. Silly, really.

I should find something better to do with my life, but my way of thinking is old-fashioned in that way. It won't matter where I am, what I'm doing, if I'm with someone I truly love.

I find it funny how I read something that I find clever and I think to myself 'no need to write it down, of course I'll remember it' and the next day the only thing I remember is that I read something I found clever.

I find it interesting how first love never really fades away. Even if you don't speak to the other person for months, mayhap years, and then when you suddenly meet up, your heart starts beating faster and you feel a sort of.. wonderful nostalgia. And indeed wonderful, even if it was full of hurt and hate all those years back. You may not be interested in them at all, and still feel love by default towards them. If anything, it reminds you you have loved and you can love again, you're not an empty apathetic shell of yourself.

Or we can keep chilling like ice cream filling
We can be cool in the gang if you'd rather hang

Today's a little better than yesterday.

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