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I've always thought myself as inferior to others. Since as long as I can remember, I've thought that I'm not as good as the other person. Now, from Uni (or maybe some time before) that has started to change bit by bit. At least now I can say that I'm perfectly average. I'm just as good as the other person. Maybe not as pretty (by my own standards, if not by anyone else's - meaningless arguments could come from that), but definitely just as smart, just as crafty, just as mean. Just as unoriginal. Jane Grey.

And now I'm realizing that even though it's better to be average than it was to be inferior before, it's not as good as being great. And I know some great people (I've got great friends, haha). Like M, who got 99+% on this semester's tests. I mean, is she a robot or what? But no, she's just great.

I want that. I want something to be great at. However, I'm very clumsy, not at all crafty (or well, not more than the average person, right?) and not smarter than the average bear (or well, human).

I hope I'm making some sense. Studying semiotics atm, which isn't making any sense at all.

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