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Japanese homework has gotten surprisingly hard. Maybe because I've been falling behind a lot on it. We have a sheet of sentences, half in Japanese, half in Estonian and then we have to translate them. And translating Estonian to Japanese is fine - sometimes I don't find all the words, but at least I understand what they want from me, right? Obviously not the case with Japanese. SO much grammar stuck together, I translate all the words and *still* don't get it (and you never will, ha-ha). Well, at least I'm trying now. I want to pass the test in January. I haven't really had much motivation to study for.. months now. I don't get the same happy feeling anymore. When I first started Uni I sometimes just sat there with a stupid grin on my face and thought - I'm actually sitting here.. studying JAPANESE. Something new, interesting. Speshul. I don't get that anymore. I suppose it's gotten harder, there's more to memorize and all that takes the fun away. I used to love studying kanjis most about Japanese. 'Cause they were so easy to memorize! Now we take around twenty kanjis at once, they're all very specific and somehow I find myself thinking - when am I ever going to use THIS? And as we're supposed to know about - let me check - about 600 kanjis by now.. there's so much! There's not enough gigs in my brain to fit all this! And yet, we still don't know enough to even read a lousy newspaper.

Man, I do enjoy writing in English though. I wonder if it's going to bother some people, but I hate writing half in one language and half in another (whereas 80%-20% is totally fine, desho?) and that's what I was doing. And my thoughts flow more.. easily. In English. In Estonian my mind just gets stuck. In a strange sort of way, English inspires me. Huh.

And I'm sure I make mistakes, probably a lot of them, when using English. I feel even that skill has gone down a bit since high school (definitely my Estonian has). However. That is irrelevant. Just bear with me, will you? (It's unBEARable!)

Oh, I had another driving lesson today. And for the first time I got to go driving in real traffic. With cars and shit, you dig? And I LOVED it. Sure, I made some mistakes - being to slow in some instances, forgetting what I'm supposed to do in those traffic.. circle.. things, and so on, but.. it was great. I smiled to myself many times. I'm surprised at how much I like driving. I just hope I can pass those exams when the time comes, though (and that's not all that far away).

So AFTER the driving lesson I went through New Yorker, where I found the most gorgeous bag I've ever seen.. I thought long and hard, but I just couldn't NOT buy it. It would've haunted my dreams and then I would've returned to the store and found that it's been bought and I would've regretted it forevah. I'm sure. Merry Christmas to me! Best present ever. Christmas is the time of giving, right?

Beh, I feel a bit nauseous. But at least my tummy doesn't ache anymore. Beeehhhhh.

I'm watching a j-drama called Attention Please at the moment.. and it makes me want to become a stewardess (do they use that word anymore? At some point I heard they changed it to something more.. *appropriate*. Meh. They use 'cabin attendant' in the j-drama xD). Serving some tea in the sky. xD (way to downgrade it, son!)

Yeah. Feels good to write.

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