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So. Tomorrow's the first schoolday.. thingy.. isn't it ? Today I woke up and suddenly realized it.. wasn't very shaken up though. Weird, last summer I was stressing the whole time just cause I knew that school would start sooooon..
Must scare stupid people tomorrow. So, black-pink striped socks, pink yarn to put my hair together with, my hat-thingy.. perhaps a skirt.. I'm not sure about that yet though.. I've got to attach Psycho Bitch on my backpack, but I don't think I'll be taking it along tomorrow.. Woo, this is going to be interesting.
I drew a little bit today.. nothing good came out though. Also posted my poem at the Elf forum, I suppose I'm not expecting a lot of positive feedback. It's just not good enough..
Well, alright. Can't remember anything else at the moment. Well.. nothing that I should mention here, anyway. Right. So.
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This time, I'm not talking about Sten. He still owes me money. An electric guitar and headphones still don't change *that* much.
Let me start from the beginning.. of today.
I went shopping with Deca. He wanted a ring and I suppose he didn't know the exact place of a certain shop where to get one. So, I went along. Advised a little. Lalalala. Suddenly, he tells me to pick out something I like ? Beh. I was like "wtf", so it all took a little time. But since I had time to look around the store myself, I already knew what I wanted. Psycho bitch. Yees!

Thankyouuu. ^^ I'm sooo putting it on my backpack. I just hope none of the teachers mind. And if they do.. well, the sign fcuking warned them. =.=
So. After that, we called a few people. At first we got Airline and Kek to join us. Gothmog and Erki for a while too, but they went elsewhere. And at some point we met Promillu and Seichi too. Bah, my memory's pretty much gone again. All I can remember is that we bought 2 pizzas. Because Seichi (I hope that's how it's written, anyway) screamed to the.. whoever was making the pizza, that they should put a lot of garlic and stuff ("anything that's free") on it. And they actually listened to him. Goddamn, the smell was horrible..
And then we went to the Levikas place and stuff. And after that, home! Yay! For it was way too fcuking boring there. Lalalala.
Too bad neutral was in Tartu though. Quite a few people asked about him, methinks.
Alrighty.

Aah, here I am again. Yesterday we were at Skotos' place.. again. Watched uh.. some movie that Gothmog really liked and then basically.. The Ring 0, I'd say. "What happened before the killings.. what made the tape..". It was in Japanese though, so neutral and gothmog laughed from time to time. I enjoyed it though. I think I kind of scared neutral, when he came into the room again. I just put my hair in front of my face. Oh, so Sadako of me. ^^ Yeh, Sadako. In the American version of The Ring she was called Somara.. I don't know.. both names own anyway. :D Sadako.. hm. Reminds me of that.. Perfect Girl Evolution manga.. there there was this girl named Sudako, I think. She had long black hair too. Most of it was in front of her face, since she didn't want to be seen and all. And she had geek-ish clothes. Beh. Cool anyway.
Neutral went back to Tartu today. We spent the day here. I think I'm gonna wait until he comes online and then talk a bit and then go sleep. It was so fun having him here. He even met my mom. And she liked him. And she hugged him! She never does that with anyone! Too cool.
Here we watched Eddie Murphy's "Delirious". He laughed his ass off. I've seen it way too many times, so I didn't laugh that much. But it was nice to see him laugh. Don't ask. I just like seeing people like that. OooO, how kinky. Fear me!
Merit sent me the song we heard when we were watching Ally McBeal (she also sent me the song from uh.. "Oh brother, where art thou?", which owned.). Yay! Kewl song. Nice lyrics. Mmlove. :**

I know something about love
You've gotta want it bad
If that guy's got into your blood
Go out and get him
If you want him to be the very part of you
That makes you want to breathe
Here's the thing to do
Tell him that you're never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now

-Vonda Shepard - Tell Him

Hmm.. the day started with.. well, uh. I mean, last night I went to Skotos' place. And stayed the night. Y'know, watching movies and shit. And.. in the morning I went to school. Me and Merit helped the teacher carry books and arrange them and stuff. After that.. hmm. Got together with Neutral. Aand.. other people too. A bit later, however. Okay and so everything was nice. Until the point where I called mom and asked, if I can spend the night over at Aldril's and Kessu's place and mom said NO. Rawr.
I'll see Neutral tomorrow again then, hopefully. I'll get up as early as he's ready to come to town. >:) Hell, I mean.. Mom won't let me stay out late (I have to be home when it gets dark).. so when should I have the time to be with him ? Course, morning then. I don't care. Rawr rawr.
Ilovehim:*

Oh yeah. By the way. Giving books as presents would be.. dumb, too. Why ? 'Cause if everyone suddenly start giving me books, I'm going to have at least 2 of the same. Though Anne Rice's books are nice too..
And anyway, books, which are still in English, are hard to get, I suppose. And expensive. Oh yes, how could've I forgot about the expensive part.
So anyway. GIMME MONEYY!

Okay now I'm really going to go get food. ^-^

So. My birthday is.. about 21 days away. I WANT PRESENTS! ..which I won't get. 'Cause I'm not celebrating my birthday. Y'know, who would care anyway ? Last year that day was a disaster, I wouldn't be surprised, if things would end up the same way this year.
Even if I'm going to get presents, they're probably going to be.. weird. Something I don't want. Don't need. Never asked for. But what do I what ? Stephen King's books. Those, that are still in English. I hate when they're translated. I wouldn't want to read a Stephen-King-book, when it's translated by some dumbass Estonian. Rawr. Leave those books alone, you hear! Those, who are intelligent enough to read them in English, read them! Others, who aren't smart enough.. well. Read some stupid Estonian book or something. There's actually no point of writing all of this anyway.. Since nobody cares. Okay good.
Didn't see Deca today, he sent a message that I should make other plans for today.. so yeah. Still can't get that Enigma CD from him, grr.
To whom am I going to brag about my socks to then ? neutral! Meow. Love. :*
Okay, all for now, I'm gonna go and, y'know, get some food.

Yes. That redgrapejuice owns. Sweet. Nothing better. In the juice department, that is.
Mike and Oliver (and someone's relative Sandra) came by. Oliver wanted his shirt back, which I borrowed when we were still in Viljandi. Y'know, Folk. Mike's got a beard now. o_o Weird. Kewl, but weird.
So. Mommy bought me socks today. Almost knee-high. Pink and black striped. ^.^ I wish I had pants or a skirt which I could show 'em off with. >.< Oh well.
Anyway.
Iloveneutral. :**
That's probably all for today, folks. :D

Today, around.. 1PM.. I was sleeping. What woke me up was my brother running into the room with the phone. Who was it ? My new teacher-thingy. Reinert was her last name. She seemed nice on the phone. I have to go to school on Thursday.. like, 11AM. To help her move the books and shit. And get my books, while I'm at it, too. Weird. I should call Merit and ask if she'll come too. Probably not, but it's worth a try.
I should really go to the store in the next couple of days. I still need some school.. stuff. Beh, mommy must take me. And mommy must pay for them. 'Cause I only got 5 kroon's on my account now. :D I don't know how I'll survive, I'm too spoiled. Now I have to ask mom, if I want something.. aagh. NOOOOO, I'm dependent now! ;_;
But.. I'll get through. I'm happy now, see. I got what I wanted.
I got him.
neutral. :**

I really, really do.
In case I didn't write it wrong or anything, that is. :D
So. What else can I say. I miss him! Hopefully he'll come to Tallinn like Thursday or Friday. Yay! ^^ Okay what else..
Well, I suppose I'm going to see Mike and the gang tomorrow. They want to see my new haircolor. o.O Yes, the one that got me in all that trouble. >.<>.< And he'll get Spawn. What's with the brother dearest, you ask ? Well. I've explained before. And, as brother and sister should, we'll beat up the people who annoy the other. And stuff. I'm not making sense, am I. Okay. Good.
I really should make a new layout and move my blog thing there. Or, hmm. I suppose I could make a template of my own and use the code of this place. Rather sneaky, hmm. Well, I mean.. I've always done my own html and layouts, so it seems kind of wrong.. but then again.. perhaps not. :D I should get on with it (Oh my god, I just wrote "him" instead of "it" just now. :D), since school's starting in like a week or so. Yay ? Oh well. They say it's going to get 3 times as hard. Schoolwork, I mean. Does this mean I'm actually going to have to start.. studying ? *gasp*
Okay I'm off.


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I'm in Tartu. o_o YAY!
At the moment.. uh. Hannes' place. It's small. o_o Merit and Neutral and Hannes are here. YAY. Tartu's scary. <.<
Heheh Neutral is afraaiiiddd of me and Merit. ^^ 'Cause y'know, we torture him and stuff. Awwww how cute. ^^
Anyway uh. Yeh. I think I'll go now and find out what other interesting stuff there is to do on the web. Though Merit's saying "Let's go outside". Or whining. o_o :D
Okaybye.

Oh wait. Right. Neutral and Hannes were talking bout comp stuff a while ago. When I was trying to torture Merit. Thus, the name of the uh, update. Okay.

For the longest time now I've been wanting to explain why the blog thing is called 3t anyway.
At first, I tried a lot of things with this and failed, so later I just typed in *something* to fill the blank. Then suddenly I didn't understand why, but I grew attached to it. I checked google and found some stupid boyband under that name. So I was thinking of changing it. But no.
I remembered that was the no. of the tram in Finland, which we used to get to the amusement park. Besides. 3t is so l33t. :D
So anyway. Mom's not home, which is a pity. I need to ask if I can stay in Tartu. Overnight. I can't just leave, y'know. Mommy would kill me.
Pretty cool though. I have a whole different perspective of Deca. I suppose the talk last night made me think of him as a brother that I never had. Though I have a brother. But it's not Deca. Yeh, okay..
A fly sucked my blooood.. ;_; From my thumb, basically. Aaah, itchy. I wannu scratchy. :D Hm, maybe I should stop drinking Starter. Caffeine makes me hyper. o_o I think. LALALALLAA. Oh yeah, definitely.
Okay enough! O_O EEEEhehehehehhee.. I think I should call Merit now.

So. He did make it on the bus. He's home. Yay. :) And I'm most certainly going to Tartu then. ^.^
I'm not sure how far he made it with the breaking-up thing. I should ask, really. Hmm, I hope the girl doesn't hate me. Actually I was hoping to become better friends with her. But yeah..
I'll see Mihkel tomorrow. He actually wanted to go to the movies with me, but I have no money to actually *waste*. Y'know, I still need to buy bus tickets and shit.
..
He said that he told her. So it's all over. So I'm not an "Illegal factor" in any possible way. Woo. :)
Well, alright. 10AM wake-up call.. thingy. Gotta go.

Yay.

Well. The last couple of days have been more than a bit interesting.
Uh. I think I have a boyfriend.
I think he still has to dump his girlfriend. Since he said, that she probably wants to move on anyway. And that it's all complicated with her. I don't want to seem like the one who's like, stealing someone's boyfriend. And he said I shouldn't think of it like that. 'Cause it's not like that. Isn't it ? I'm not sure.
But I think I'm kind of in love. He's funny, sweet, smart, good-looking.. isn't he pretty much perfect ? Well, 'cept for the fact that he lives rather far away. Tartu. Bah.
But, Merit's going to Viljandi tomorrow. And the day after, probably to Tartu. And, if I can somehow get in touch with him (his cell got stolen and he's happily running around in Tallinn perhaps, maybe he got on the last bus to Tartu, not sure), then I'll go with Merit. To Tartu. And see him. I might spend the night and Hannes' place, if he's okay with it. I still have to ask. If he isn't, then I'll just have to go home the same day.
No, Hannes isn't the one. Hannes is a friend. Uh, not getting into that. Why ? Well, nothing important. Not that Hannes wouldn't be import-- goddamn. I have to get an ego and stop worrying about people taking some of my sentences in a bad way. Since I usually mean things in a good way anyway. Okay. Enough of Hannes.
I stood outside in the rain with him. No, not Hannes. My boyfriend-to-be ? He had nowhere to go (or well, so he thought) and I couldn't let him in. Mom would've killed me. And him. So. I couldn't let him be in the cold alone. I got to bed around.. 7AM, I think. It was nice.
I think I'm gonna see Merit tomorrow, too. Before she leaves. Yes. At noon. *western music*.
So. Wow I'm kind of psyched. I mean. C'mon. He's so cute! But I'm kind of worried about him.. baah. I hope he's okay. I think I'm gonna wait in the net. And see if he caught the last bus. Which would mean he should arrive in Tartu in.. 2:30AM or something. So.. staying up 'till 3AM ? Aagh, waking up 10AM is going to be a bitch. >.<>.> I mean. Yeah. I'll be back. :D


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Can it really be ?

Well, yeah. That's more or less how it is. Though, today was rather nice.
Let me see..
I woke up about noon.. then got a call from Gothmog. He said he's meeting Kek 1:30Pm. Kay. Asked Flabos, marek, Neutral and Sonny to come along too. They arrived earlier than I did. I'm slow. Damn, I was still in my pajamas when he called.
So.
Uh.. I can't remember.
So anyway, later we went to Kompressor. Kek said he'd eat. But he didn't. Noooo. I hate a quarter of what Gothmog had. Bwhahahaa. Aand that was enough. Damn bigass pancakes.
Later, me, Kek, Skotos and Neutral went looking for Marek and his friend, who is a dumbass. Uh, I mean, Mardu or Mardo was his name. Anyway, stupid motherfucker. Said some bad shit about Nurjam. And he doesn't even know her one bit. Grr. So yeah, we found them, Neutral and Skotos talked to that Mard-whatever, I added a couple of words. Later on, Marek and the dumbfuck.. whoops, I meant mardu, went to the forum where they said all of that and apologized.
So. After that, everyone went home. Thanks, SkotosNeutralandKek, for waiting with me in the bus station thingy.
When I got home, I ate a bit, then cleaned downstairs. I was smart to not leave that on the last moment. Mom came home earlier than I expected. Hm, sneakyy..
She also gave me an apple, which was good. Reminded me too much of that uh. Y'know, that stupid fairytale with the dark-haired, pale-skinned, red-lipped girl who lived with 7 dwarfs or such. And that evil bitch. Witch. Lady. OOokay.
So, yeah. Okay. Might see Deca tomorrow. OOooh, how cool. I'm going to fuck up my life tomorrow. Hooray!